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seldearI just opened porn mail belonging to someone in this office. Blech. Don't know why they're sending it here (unless it's because they don't want the wife to see it at home). Return address on envelope: Fyshwick.
Anyway, he's not going to get his porn offer for the month. I trashed it in repayment for having to see even the little I did see. Sucks to be him.
Word count this morning: 15,680 (in the story file, not the nano file, which is about 18,000). Sydney NaNo Group may be having a comp to see who can write the most in a day. I'd like to hit the halfway mark at 25,000 (nano file), but we'll see.
Still mildly depressed, not likely to get any better. My main interactions with people these days are IM and LJ and nobody much is talking to me on either one lately.
I would like for the wave to break and my little boat to be overturned so I can at least mourn. Tell Poisedon to hurry up with his storm so I can get it out of the way and get on with my life. It's going to happen sooner or later - the sea god is fickle and capricious at the best of times - I'd like to have this boat dumped and splintered for sure before I try to use it for anything else and find myself drowning out at sea.
ETA: *big special sel-hugs* for the people who responded when I was really blue. You know who you are.
Anyway, he's not going to get his porn offer for the month. I trashed it in repayment for having to see even the little I did see. Sucks to be him.
Word count this morning: 15,680 (in the story file, not the nano file, which is about 18,000). Sydney NaNo Group may be having a comp to see who can write the most in a day. I'd like to hit the halfway mark at 25,000 (nano file), but we'll see.
Still mildly depressed, not likely to get any better. My main interactions with people these days are IM and LJ and nobody much is talking to me on either one lately.
I would like for the wave to break and my little boat to be overturned so I can at least mourn. Tell Poisedon to hurry up with his storm so I can get it out of the way and get on with my life. It's going to happen sooner or later - the sea god is fickle and capricious at the best of times - I'd like to have this boat dumped and splintered for sure before I try to use it for anything else and find myself drowning out at sea.
ETA: *big special sel-hugs* for the people who responded when I was really blue. You know who you are.
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Date: 2004-11-09 02:36 pm (UTC)I'm feeling a wee bit like you are at the moment hon so kinda understand... hopefully things start looking brighter for you.
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Date: 2004-11-09 02:43 pm (UTC)Almost halfway!!! *cheers*
*hugs* Feel better!
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Date: 2004-11-09 02:46 pm (UTC)I'm so amazed by the writing, especially since you're down. I can't produce much of anything in that mental state.
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Date: 2004-11-09 03:14 pm (UTC)Do hope you're feeling more "up" soon. I know what you mean about only really hearing from people on LJ and IM, and what you said about typically only getting a couple of responses. I feel the same way. I just get to go home to two clingy kids in the evening, which can be both good and bad.
Anyway. I'm sure things will improve. It just takes time - as always.
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Date: 2004-11-09 03:29 pm (UTC)*hugs and yummy foodstuffs*
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Date: 2004-11-09 05:42 pm (UTC)That's SO funny. I can just picture his stupid, bewildered face as he searches for his porn, the poor pig.
And go self-indulge for a bit, if you get the chance. It really helps with the depression.
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Date: 2004-11-10 02:06 am (UTC):( Boo for down-ness. :(
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Date: 2004-11-10 02:11 am (UTC)I'm now at 21,895 - so not quite the halfway mark I wanted.
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Date: 2004-11-10 02:12 am (UTC)I don't usually write much when I'm down - but having the pressure helps a bit. I just tend to go introvertedly spirall-y.
*hugs back*
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Date: 2004-11-10 02:14 am (UTC)I need nice, classy romance to cheer me up! *g*
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Date: 2004-11-10 02:16 am (UTC)You're a brick, mate. All red and bricky-like. *G*
And yes with the rewriting and throwing away. I think the last two days' effort has ended up in the grey-outs (which is stuff that I don't think I'll end up using, but which I keep in case I do).
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Date: 2004-11-10 02:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-10 02:17 am (UTC)Maybe Australia Day weekend (is it a weekend next year?) or something? I know that's probably a horribubble time, but I need something to look forward to.
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Date: 2004-11-10 02:22 am (UTC)I hate Mister Procras! ;)
Good luck on reaching your target and I hope your spirits start to soar once more.
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Date: 2004-11-10 04:14 am (UTC)That's just nasty :( And I'm sorry if I've not been commenting as I don't always have time but I'm always sending positive thoughts your way :)
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Date: 2004-11-10 05:02 am (UTC)If people are gonna send porn to work then it should at least be darn good porn! ;)
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Date: 2004-11-10 07:57 am (UTC)I have to say that if, and I say if as it hasn't happened much recently, I write, I don't throw much away. I do go back and re-write stuff though. What you're probably doing is more the sign of a mature writer than what I do. You go through what you write in much more detail and really plan and plot what you do. It definitely makes for a better story in the end though. :)
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Date: 2004-11-10 12:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-11 02:13 am (UTC)I didn't even look at whose name was on the envelope, actually. It took me two looks to work out what I was seeing. Two looks too many!
*hugglies* I know you're watching, and thanks muchly!
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Date: 2004-11-11 02:14 am (UTC)lol. I think I prefer the 'no-porn' workplace. I like my 'porn' literary rather than visual. ;)
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Date: 2004-11-15 02:51 am (UTC)Hmf. Will see what is possible. Don't know if I'll have a job then - or what kind of job.