thank you

[seldear]

The good news: I got the program I've been working on for the last 10 days done this afternoon. It was only supposed to take 4 days, but took a right turn at the second star to the left and has been going until today. And all I had to do was copy code. There are times when it's good to be a plagiarist. Especially when it means I've finished another program. (Minus tweaking, but that's the usual way of it.)

--

The depressive thoughts: I was thinking over recent situations where assorted people have shown no interest in meeting me a second time. Oh, we're friendly but I can't say that we're friends. That's the nature of LJ, I suppose.

Sometimes it seems that the truism of "first impressions" is very accurate - particularly for me. In most cases, I seem to screw up my 'first impression'. People who meet me aren't willing to bite the lemon again. Oddly enough.

And then there are the people who do want to meet me again.

Sometimes I cry because I don't know why. Tonight was one of those nights.

A lot of you have met me once or twice, and I'm fairly certain some of you never want to see me again. I'm fairly certain a lot of you never will see me again. And I probably give you more thought or consideration than my mother would think you deserve. And that's usually the way of the introspective towards the effusive.

To those of you who, for reasons that sometimes seem inexplicable to me, put up with me a second, third, fourth or (in arabel's case) an umpteenth time, I only have this to say.

Thanks.

Comments

[ex-aardie509.livejournal.com]

I'd be willing to bite the lemon, if opportunity arose. And yeah - from me that just sounds wrong in SO many ways (gutter! Ack! Bad!) but I think what I like about you more is the person, not the fangirly squee that you probably get from time to time. You're real. You have every right to be real. The people who hold onto you are the people that see that.

LJ is a bitch. It's difficult to feel friendship from afar. Trust me. But it doesn't make us any less people for it. So you just hold onto what you believe is right and true about yourself and as for the rest? Well .... fuck 'em if they can't take a joke! ;)

[tv-elf.livejournal.com]

I'd be willing to bite the lemon, if opportunity arose.

What is porny lines McKay would say to Sam?

Yes, I watch too much Jeopardy.

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Aardie.

Hey, kiddo.

[mitai.livejournal.com]

I have been on LJ maybe a half-hour a day or less for the past several weeks, but I see this pattern of you discussing your perspective on friendship . . . and it's been going on a while. Wouldn't it be more cathartic if you just came right out and discussed clearly and without generalizing exactly what's bothering you? If it's been eating at you this long, clearly the vague posts aren't doing for you what they need to . . .

Just a thought. ::hugs::

Re: Hey, kiddo.

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

I tend to take a long time about these kinds of thoughts.

[chiroho.livejournal.com]

Good news on the code. Plagiarism is always great when coding. At least now it's just tweaking.

Unfortunately, I don't think you're coming anywhere near me on this trip to the US. I would like to meet you again - though I have to say my wife's reactions to meeting women I've met online are hardly supportive to say the least. The last comment she passed was "Can't you make some male friends?". I think you can probably guess the rest.

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

:/

It is a bit hard to make male friends when you're in a largely-female community. Go visit Andrew down in Atlanta sometime. :) She won't be able to complain then!

And thanks. I think I might have finished the program today (tweaks and all). YAY!

[stef94.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I am =so= coming to Sydney! It has completely been my fault for not properly planning a trip before, but as soon as I kinda maybe know a bit more what the frell is going on with this fracking project in Melbourne, I am picking dates and you better be there! Cos you're going to have to put up with me for the third time, whether you like it or not ;-)

Erm, you are still in Aus in June.. right? *crosses fingers*

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

Yes, still in Aus in June. And would still love to see you and catch up and you can try to hook me on Farscape, although it's more likely that we'd end up watching BSG since I already know I like that. :)

Let me know exactly when you are in Sydney - I wasn't sure if you were back in Holland for good, or just for a little while...

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

Anything happened with the unit-in-same-complex? That would be really good for you guys. (Don't have to change too much in the process of moving - just find a lot of friends willing to help move furniture!)

I don't know whether to stay with you or Jen - I might stay with Jen since I haven't stayed with them before, and I don't know how long I'm going to be in the DC area, but I'll hope to see both of you at some stage!

[starfinn.livejournal.com]

(((huggles sel tight)))

I'd put up with ya over and over again girl. When you get to the bay area we could just bounce you between Alli's, here and Lola's if you wanted. :) We are all within 2 hours of eachother.

Congrats on the program!!!!

[tv-elf.livejournal.com]

Heh, between all of us, she will get no rest while she's here. (Hi! I'm in Concord.)

[pixiesio.livejournal.com]

{{huggles}} Can't wait to see ya in Vegas, hon! :D

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

Looking forward to it! :D

[amilyn.livejournal.com]

Hey. I am EXCITED about seeing you.

I am HOPING you'll stay at my place, at least for part of the time.

I just was crazy-busy when the first post dropped...and then I forgot to go back to it when I had time this weekend.

I'll go find it and comment there. *hugs* Love you.

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

I know you're excited - I'm looking forward to seeing you and Elf, and Ben, and Jodi and actually showing you how to make pavlova this time (we so didn't get around to it last time) as well as soft-centered chocolate pudding...

*throws diets out the window*

[saramund.livejournal.com]

Anytime. And to those of you who don't want to meet Sel a second/third/umpteenth time:

*Thwap* Idiots.

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

*pets Bec*

You're moving on to 'umpteen' times by now...

[sharim.livejournal.com]

*smooches and huggles real tight*

You do realise that if you lived ANYWHERE near me, I'd like, totally be annoying all the time?

*pookies*

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

*smooches shaz*

I'll settle for being totally annoying once in a while instead! You're still driving up with us to Brissie, right? Or is the lack-of-money monster rearing its ugly head?

[lilah-2oo4.livejournal.com]

*huggles the Sel* I loved meeting you last year! And I'd certainly do it again! You're a very cool person and you shouldn't worry about anybody who doesn't want to meet you or such again. It's definately their loss. *more hugs*

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Lilah. *smooches*

[distant-cord.livejournal.com]

If it makes you feel any better, I'd put up with you. Well, if you were comming anywhere near FL this time around. And I promise I wouldn't get lost again!

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

And I promise I wouldn't get lost again!

Promises, promises...

*g*

*hugs* Thanks, A.

[pash-meter.livejournal.com]

Hi Sel,

Don't let it get you down. There are a lot of people who know you and adore you. I'm not sure who they are... just kidding!

You are one of the most creative, unique, entertaining, talented and honest people I know. Don't change!

luv
Para

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

*tries to hide a smile* Thanks, Para. :)

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

Maybe. But sometimes I feel that way, you know?

Are you much into the adventure-style of PS game? Like Crash Bandicoot? I know you like the adventure-with-the-really-cool-graphics kind of stuff, but not sure about the more commonplace ones.

I'm still envying your little figurines. WAH!

[sleekuk.livejournal.com]

I just read this so I don't know when you posted it. I'm really looking forward to seeing you in July :)

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

Looking forward to seeing you, too - even if it's only for a short while.

[angelsasha.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

All I can say is this: It's their loss. I'm very much looking forward to seeing you in July, I don't put people up for a 7+ days for no reason :)

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thanks, hon.

[venom69.livejournal.com]

I'd say you're welcome, but I'm not certain how many times we've met up.

And it's their loss, hon. *hugs*

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

Enough times that you're heading towards 'umpteen' :)

Thanks, Ky. (again)

[sunrunnergal.livejournal.com]

If I had the option, I'd come see you in July, too!

Hey, the offer for a place to crash is still open, though!

Of course, somehow I know that you're not talking about your FFBB friends, right? Screw the stupid people.

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

No, not talking about the FFBB peeps.

And possibly the closest I'll be to TX is Arkansas for a little while...

Maybe next year?

[aunty-pasta.livejournal.com]

You're always welcome to come by and visit my pet animals dude! No baby bunnies at the mo though...possibly pigs this time. heh. they just keep onnnnnnnnn coming!

moosh loff!

[seldearslj.livejournal.com]

Well, guinea pigs and bunnies tend to breed hon. It's just what they do!

[angst-angel.livejournal.com]

And what about Pam, who's never even gotten to the "first impression" stage?? *is sad* ;)

I WANT TO MEET YOU. That is all. {hugs}